(A lot of mistakes)

I have always pride myself (first mistake) in being a commitment kind of girl. I go into a relationship when I feel (second mistake) like I am ready, when I feel like I can take care of this person. I think (third mistake) I know how to manage my emotions well and be conservative in handling conflict. When I make the decision to be with somebody, I am always thinking about how it can grow into a future (fourth mistake). Yes, I am a to-marry kind of girl. (fifth mistake) Heck, that's how I rationalize my decision to be with somebody (sixth mistake), I would look at you and be like, you're cute and you smell really nice but are you as intelligent as I think you are, in ten years, in front of my triplets?

You are either a friend, a person I am dating or a person I am a relationship with.

Friend: Your hair is ugly.
Translation: Your hair is ugly, and I can say this cause you and I are close.

A person I am dating. Your hair is ugly.
Translation: Your hair is ugly :) and no, I don't mind accompanying to the saloon cause I like you quite a lot, and I want to spend time with you.

A person I am a relationship with: Your hair is ugly
Translation. Your hair is ugly. Sayang.

The scariest thing about commitment is that it is permanent. At least for me. If I say I want to commit to you, our relationship, know that I would not leave even if we argue for days. I will always try to make it up or solve it, maybe not in the best way, but the idea is, I will try for you because I made up my mind on that day I said yes to us.

I have been in love twice in my life. I have dated a handful of people. I have been dumped and dumped somebody.

So what do I really know about this, commitment, relationship, dating thing?

All I know is.. I do not know what I want.
But the nice thing about this is, I do not have to. Life secrets are all in the cliches.

I will fall in love. I will be happy with this person, not all the time, but we can make that work. I will commit to a person so hard that his entire existence will become a major part of my life. I will be content, Yep, content with my decision.

But for now, I will continue to write as a single person and rant my frustrations as a single person.

-Farah